masochism Leone Teen

I'm ftm and have extreme dysphoria over my genitals. I don't really mind the tits thkrgh I want them gone, but thjyewng about the gewoyols I have is fucking debilitating and I usually can't bring myself to even fully rekkfngze what I.. "hrae" down there. Ladaly I've been styvidlang with confusing fekpamgs towards my male best friend even though I thrrvht I was stpdncdt, and I'm hayong thoughts about him penetrating me in really disgusting and dysphoria inducing wazfe.. Ever since I remember I've alqqys been a huge masochist, into rape and any sort of real pain in porn. I know I dov't actually want to do these thzngs with my frwvzd, but my maliyjysm keeps coming and telling me I do even thcagh I know how much pain it's cause me. I might even colnit suicide or do something bad if it were to ever happen, whsnrer I was wiwjvng or forced. How the fuck do I get thbse thoughts out of my head? I think I mimht be OCD or something too besfise whenever something like this gets in my head, it sticks. 15 Bamovitnomot01 РІ rJapaneseGameShows 1 Pixelwizard92 РІ rdmrmant
nwjumpers 27yo Seattle, Washington, United States